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Something to think about

“1.) So I’m 50 today, and I’m going to tweet what I wish I knew at 25. First up: Stop worrying so much! It’s useless. (I.e. Jesus was right.)

2.) Being a saint means being yourself. Stop trying to be someone else and just be your best self. Saves you heartache.

3.) There’s no right way to pray, any more than there’s a right way to be a friend. What’s best is what works best for you.

4.) Remember 3 things and save yourself lots of unneeded heartache: You’re not God. This ain’t heaven. Don’t act like a jerk.

5.) Your deepest, most heartfelt, desires are God’s desires for you. And vice versa. Listen. And follow them.

6.) Within you is the idea of your best self. Act as if you were that person and you will become that person, with God’s grace.

7.) Don’t worry too much about the worst that can happen. Even if it happens, God is with you, and you can handle it. Really.

8.) You can’t force people to approve of you, agree with you, be impressed with you, love you or even like you. Stop trying!

9.) When we compare, we are usually imagining someone else’s life falsely. So our real-life loses out. Ie, Compare and despair.

10.) Even when you finally realized the right thing, or the Christian thing, to do, it can still be hard to do. Do it anyway.

11.) Seven things to say frequently: I love you. Thank you. Thank you, God. Forgive me. I’m so happy for you! Why not? Yes.

12.) Final 50 y.o. lesson: Peace and joy come after asking God to free you—from anything that keeps you from being loving and compassionate.”

Just A Thought

“Be sure to notice when you’re happy.” -Brenda Farrar-Ejemai

Sometimes I forget about the little things. I forget about how many wonderful people I have in my life. I forget how much fun the little things are with these wonderful people. I forget how fortunate I am.

I really need to work on prioritizing these thoughts over the negative ones. Instead of focusing on what I don’t have, I should thank God every single day for everything that I do have.

I can be dramatic at times and feel as though my life is “empty” because one piece of the puzzle is missing or there are stray pieces that don’t quite fit anywhere. Instead of forcing these pieces to fit or spending all my time searching for more, I should be amazed at how beautiful the puzzle is in the first place. 

I’m experiencing right now, in the moment. 

Plans

Ramblings as usual…

It’s actually laughable how much time we spend scheduling, planning, going over detail after detail, analyzing possibilities, and worrying about the future.  I would not even be able to begin to calculate how much time and energy I have expended worrying about the future. I’ve always wanted all my ducks in a row (probably due in part to my slight undiagnosed case of OCD) and I hate not knowing what’s coming next.  I pride myself in being prepared, in having everything planned out, never being surprised.  I’m only 20 years old, but if there’s one thing I have learned so far it’s this: Plans change.  Sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse.

I start to wonder if planning is the worst thing you can do.  Attempting to predict the future often leads to daydreaming, which leads to ideas, which leads to unrealistic expectations (often followed by disappointment).

Despite my head telling me that this is the reality, my heart wants me to believe that life is just a big game of you get what you give.  If you want to achieve those crazy, unreachable goals, you have to have those crazy dreams and expectations in the first place.  You set the bar for your own life.  

Life can be unpredictable and completely out of your hands.  People won’t always do what you want them to do.  Things won’t always turn out how you think they should.  I guess you just have to remember that there is a reason for everything.  Something may not seem to make sense in the context of right now, but it will.  When your plans change or maybe when there aren’t any plans in sight, no matter what we do, God still has the big picture in mind and I can take comfort in that.

Dive for Dreams

dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots
and wind is wind) 
trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward) 
honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death
away at the wedding) 
never mind a world
with its villains or heroes
(for good likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth) 
in spite of everything
which breathes and moves, since Doom
(with white longest hands
neating each crease)
will smooth entirely our minds 

-e.e. cummings